Well... My blog is dead for a month down now. Time has come for me to update it again.....

I feel terrible.... Pretending not to know something when I know what it is. It sucks. I'm bad at keepng secrets even though I haven't told anyone. Flying off to Phuket tomorrow when I don't even have the mood to go.... I don't know but I just keep venting my frustrations by playing the com for long hours. 5 to 6 hours a day I guess. But I guess I shouldn't do that. It's bad for health.

Anyway, I'll just treat Phuket as a breakaway from the hustle and bustle of life. Just enjoy the beaches and lie under the sun for a few hours. Thinking a lot lately. Also planning about what am I gonna do next.

Back to today, Brother's Jubilee was quite touching. After all, he gave his youth for the school and we all know that no ordinary man could actually do that. It ran smoothly except for the CO part which I felt it was quite badly done. For a non-music person like me, I could feel that ALOT of notes went out of tune. Other than that, I guess there's nothing more.

Chinese O Level's are arriving in 10 days or somewhere around there. Well.... I hope I'm prepared for this. Tough times ahead but nevertheless, I shall persevere and suceed, even with so much stupid shit happening in my family. 俗话说得好 ”船到桥头自然直！“ The greatest enemies lies within myself. Alright, got an early flight tomorrow.

Signing off...........

It's been a long time since I last blogged. Really long time. Dead for a few months... Back now. Well, many things happened and yea. Did pretty badly.... I really do feel a sense of idiocy inside me. Anyway, lessons are kinda smooth sailing and I'm glad I don't fall asleep in class anymore. Very happy to have gotten rid of that old habit.

Well, I'm recently up to some old Chinese music. Listening to it makes me feel as if I am in the 20th century. An example would be 我吃得起苦. Listening to it kinda makes me feel that I am in that era. Kinda can feel the hardship and how people suffered during that time. Just don't know how to express it. I must thank this song. It gave me an important life lesson.

Anyway, life's good. Just that I regret slacking my whole day off today. As expected, there is quite a number of HW to be done for the Monday holiday. Exams are approaching. Gotta go sleep now. It's getting late. BYE!

I made this post just to answer to the tags some guys made here at the tag-board.

First things first, prayer.. Prayer is one of the most controversial things you will see in Christianity. One that contradicts to it is God's divine plan, that every single thing in this world is predestined. What happens that if we pray, the thing that we prayed for isn't in his plan... Well, he can't simply change his plan for you just for your sake. It's a DIVINE PLAN!! So, if he doesn't answer your prayer, we say "Oh, it's God's will". So why can't we just skip the prayer and go straight to his will?

Secondly, regarding the bible, let me tell you that no historians living around the Mediterranean and around Jesus's birth date, recorded that Jesus actually died for 3 days and rose to Heaven. NONE! If it was really such a big thing, how come all of the historians didn't even record it. The answer is very obvious. And let me tell you, I do read the Bible so Christian supporter, please do not make false accusations right in my face.

Third, you gave me an analogy of a close window. Yes, I don't know if there is wind or not. But believing there's wind outside doesn't mean there is. What I am now is that I do not know if there is a God or not.. I am telling the story of I don't know.

Next, who caused Adam and Eve to sin in the first place? The devil. Who created the devil, God! So isn't he the creator of suffering? He created us to suffer.... And lastly, you said God will destroy the devil. So what's he waiting for? He can end our suffering but he chose not to. What are you talking about? When is your end times coming? He never even told us when. How can you expect me to believe that it is coming? He only said he will. How do you know he doesn't lie?

Lastly, just some points I want to make. If God's will is there, there will be an interpretation. And because humans are fallible, misinterpretations occur. This is when ugly things start to happen. Things like murder, extremists groups and so on..... So as such, God is the indirect cause to all these things. It is indirectly caused by him! This is why things like the crusades and dark ages occurred. They are very good examples caused by Christianity

Finally, I am only questioning my religion and I don't see anything that is wrong in there. Is there? If you think there is, there is something wrong with you. Then the only thing that you aim to do is only to brainwash people into no thinking. And I think that is downright wrong. I am not misled by and atheist, I am merely questioning my own religion and having some thinking. That's ALL!

There are 1 million and 1 things I don't understand about Christianity that I don't understand for the past 8 months.... I need answers and if you think God is giving them to you, you're schizophrenic.... Here are some points I want to make

1. If God has a master plan, what is prayer for??? It is not a way of communication. There are a 101 ways more....
2. The Bible is written by human and yet we think it is infallible... This doesn't make sense...
3. The whole world including me in the past is believing that there is an invisible being in the sky watching over us all along, guiding us....
4. If God is omnipotent, why hasn't he destroyed the devil? If you say he will, what's he waiting for?
5. If the devil hasn't been destroyed because of God(he's the only being that has the power to do so), then we are suffering because of him because the devil was his creation...
6. If God loves you, he wouldn't send you to hell for eternity.. Some say sin is a barrier but if that is so, God has the power to remove it(not only being a Christian). Surely there must be other ways. Why did he only make one?
7. Some christians love to say, this is God's will. If God is an upper being, we surely cannot understand him, how the hell do we say that it is his will??

Well... These are some of the points I just want to make. I cannot believe in my own religion anymore. More people have been killed in the name of God than any shitty thing else in the world....

Its been a long time since I blogged... About 2 months now.. Getting hooked on Twitter!!!!! Its just fun...

Well, Exams exams.... Just slightly messed up my Chem... But I got a just pass or 60++ for other subjects. Feel that I can do much more better. Maybe, not giving my 100% to my studies. I always like to waste time away and I find computer gaming addictive. On the inside, I want to stop but my heart tells me to just keep playing, playing and playing.... Well, addiction is definitely not good.

Anyway, for the exams, what's done is done. I can't do anything much anyway. Just hope against hope that the other papers will turn out fine. They are already marked so whatever marks I get is destined to be it unless, there are mistakes in the calculations which highly not possible.

Ahhh, exams.... the scary part of it is getting the results and the stressful part is taking the exams.... Well, they are a part and parcel of a student's life. It will never end. I'll have to face it until I'm at least 20++ years old.

Well, gonna go off now! CYA!

Well, been a long time since I came back to blog. Got 3 tests in a row(even though there isn't a need to study one of them). Can't finish my damn homework mann! I owe to much of it already...

Well, always sleeping in class so my class calls me the sleeper.... I gotta change that bad habit or else I'll fail again like last time... I shall use my com less to study more then... Got a friend that actually got used to sleeping late and waking up early. Quite shocked when I heard it. It will weaken your immune system though. I don't want that. This is the last time I am ever going to stay up late ever again.

Was asked to do this darn quiz by my friend.... It was quite lame la.... Anyway, here we go!

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers in their blog.

B)Tag 8 people to do this quiz. Those that are tagged cannot refuse
Don't want to tag.... It wastes time...

1. What have you been doing recently?
Random stuff sia... Slacking

2.Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
Yes. When I am having school or sleeping

3.What happened at 10am today?
Learning Math

4.When did you last cry?
Don't know???

5.Believe in faith/destiny?
I believe in God.

6.What do you want in your life now?
Get good grades first then we talk....

7.Do you carry an umbrella when it rains or just put on your head.
Carry.

8.What's your favourite thing to do on the bed?
Nothing...

9.What bottoms are you wearing now?
School Uniform

10.What's the nicest thing in my inbox?
Nothing.

11.Do you tend to make your relationship complicated?
Never once have I thought of that....

12.Are you wearing anything borrowed from anyone?
I never borrow clothing... Unless absolutely necessary...

13.What was the last movie you caught?
Forgotten... Ages since I caught one...

14.What are you proud of?
Nothing much...

15.What does the oldest text msg in your inbox say?
Jordan asking me how the service was.

16.What was the last song you sang out loud?
Here We Go

17.Do you have any nicknames?
Zebra...

18.What does the newest text msg say?
Nicholas asking what time I will be reaching Church

19.What time did you go to bed last night?
12a.m

20.Are you currently happy?
Yes.

21.Who gives the best advice?
My leaders!

22.Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can.
No.

23.Who did you talk on the phone last night?
Yu Xiang and Xavier.

24.Is something bugging you now?


25.Who was the last person to make you laugh?

Been a looong time since I posted. Nothing much anyway. Stupid week with lotsa slack times like Cross Country and E-Learning. Agreed that E-learning is nothing much but just a waste of time.... I would really rather have a normal school day...

Well, just have to bear with it. There will be 1 more E-learning in term 2.. I saw some people just really died at E-learning. They don't know how to do the English.. They just can't record it. Well, gonna make this a short post so Goodbye!!!